A Human under Review

I have started to type an entry twice a day for the past 4 days... I guess I don't really know what I'm doing or what I'm trying to say... With life comes experience, and with experience comes knowledge... These are some things that I don't have either of. I feel as if I've been living in a bubble... not acting the way I wanted to act because i knew that it was WRONG, or socially unacceptable... Growing up, I didn't worry too much about it, because hanging with the "IN" crowd wasn't something that I wanted, or I guess, I didn't really fit in. At that point my "Freak Flag" was only at half mast...

Now I've been doing some Serious soul searching... and I've been asked what TV Show I'm trying to base my life on... but its nothing like that. There is no TV show, no movie, no Hollywood life that I am trying to emulate... I just want to be myself, let my FREAK FLAG FLY... fly high up in the sky... I'm weird, yup... I'm totally a weirdo...

I want to be eccentric... I want to wear whatever I want to wear, and have long crazy hair, and wear fake glasses, and wear so many bracelets that you can't even see my arms... the pieces are all there. The desire to be a freak is there, and I'm toeing the cliff... I want to put crazy art on my walls... and have 4 dogs, and go for hikes, and up and leave if I want to take a vacation, and be out till 4 in the morning taking pictures, because its what I love to do. I want to drive cross country and stopping where ever i want, and whenever.

I am a person with multiple crazy quirks...

I am extremely weird about food...

I hate strawberries, oranges, hard noodles, lettuce where it is not supposed to be, for example on a sandwich or a hamburger.

I hate margarine, milk, the texture of bananas, celery and green peppers...

I can only eat ham sandwiches when they are made for me, I don't like to touch ham...

I love taking EXTREMELY LONG, HOT SHOWERS, and just sitting on the floor in the shower while the water just runs... and the radio blares music.

I do all my best thinking while sitting in the shower, and I carry on mental conversations, for example, things that I SHOULD have said... and regret NOT saying.

I love extremely bright colors, and love to wear them, regardless of how crazy I look when I layer multiple colors that don't always go...

I Love making sexual innuendos... and I have an extremely dirty mind.

I have a potty mouth, and don't like to sensor what I say...

I am a product of my Father.

There is nothing i love more then saying something funny that makes my dad actually Laugh out Loud.

I am Irish, Finnish, French and English.

I am a photographer, and love capturing beauty through the barrel of lens.

I own close to 70 pairs of shoes... only 20 of them are neutral tones...

I could live my life in jeans... I have at least 15 pairs of jeans...

When I love something, I tend to buy it in multiples, in various colors... for example I own 6 of the same shirt, just in different colors.

I love the smell of my armpits... and currently smell like Apricot and Almonds...

I have curly hair, but never wear it curly, cause it would over-take my face.

I can't walk into a room that doesn't have a light on. For example, can't walk through my house, unless I turn the light on as I go through and can turn it off after I leave.

I aspire for greatness, but very quickly get tired of it.

I only hate people who don't give me a chance.

I can easily get along with peoples parents before I become friends with them.

I'm tired of only being average at things... There is nothing that I am extremely talented at.

I really hate bugs... and when it comes to killing a spider, the thought of crunching it between my fingers makes me want to barf.

If left untamed, my eyesbrows would look like two furry caterpillars...

I have a huge scar on my chin, because apparently you cannot run on ice.

I love pretty much every genre of music, and have a rare condition entitled "Music ADD" Self diagnosed of course.

I am actually having a good time, even though I may not always look like it. Trust me, you'd know if I was upset. ha.

I have scars on my body, that tell a story of my life. For example, going through a windshield, running along side a bike and hitting a rock, making a "boxcar" that failed when the wheel fell off and so did I.

I once tried to kill someone by putting flower petals in their homemade popsicle.

I would be completely content watching a Law and Order SVU marathon all day.

I am a passionate person, who is always looking for Love.

I hate a lot of things about myself, and wish I could change a lot about my life.

I am a hopeless romantic.

I believe that love should never be forced. Its something you just know, and doesn't need convincing.

I hate my feet, and the length of my toes.

I hate the fact that when I tan, my legs and feet are always 3-4 shades LIGHTER.

I am extremely impulsive.

I like big noses and facial hair, they remind me of my father. (NO OFFENSE DAD)

I am a freak.

I want to help in a third world country. Or possibly Join the Peace Corps.

I want to do something that I could be proud of.

I want to be happy.